This morning I woke up completely on the wrong side of the bed. I just had a chip on my shoulder. Weighed down by petty problems that I festered on. I missed my morning devotions and decided to sleep instead because sleep always seems like the better decision at 5:30am. Finally at 5pm today I decided this mood was killing me and I needed some serious Jesus time. Oh man did I need Jesus! I opened my bible, started reading and instantly I felt this huge burden lift off of me and some serious conviction for not doing this sooner. Psalm 34 gave me a huge slap of reality. I highly recommend you reading that chapter today.
The Lord has shown Himself to be so incredibly faithful time and time again… especially these last few months. For example: After 8 years in the same neighborhood, Water of Life is currently in the process of moving to a different part of Phnom Penh due to skyrocketing rent prices in the Toul Tom Poung area. After months of tirelessly searching for a home for 45 boys/young men and coming up empty handed, WOL leadership prayerfully decided to give the landlord our 30 day notice and take a massive leap of faith. Im not going to lie, some of us (including me!) were a little bit fearful. What if we couldn’t find a house in time? Where would all of these boys go? But oh thee of little faith! Only a short time later the Lord provided a great home and area for WOL’s relocation! Not only that but WOL’s current landlord agreed to let WOL stay until January when our new house is ready to move into.
Our God is the God of the eleventh hour and He is greatly into the details. The Bible is filled with stories that prove God’s love for His people. Yet here I was being a total grump and being discontent with life…. then Psalm 34 happened… it’s not AT ALL about me. The first verses I read were: “I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall be continually in my mouth. My soul shall make its boast in the Lord; the humble shall hear of it and be glad. Oh, magnify the Lord with me, and let us exalt His name together. I sought the Lord and He heard me, and delivered me from all my fears….” Lately I have been paralyzed by fear. Very irrational fears but they seem rational in my head! But why?? I have nothing to fear. God hears us. God knows us. God LOVES us. When I focus on Jesus my fears and discontentment melt away. Sometimes we get so caught up in our lives and trials that we forget to involve God. We can’t do any of this life without Him, so look up and talk to Jesus!
That was my eye opening lesson for the day. I really doubt it will be my only lesson today :) Today is a new day, a new week… fill it with Jesus!
God Bless,
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